spiritual giants.

this may seem like a typical churchie church song...

but it is one of the most beautiful songs i have ever heard.

i hope you have a beautiful day and feel the love of god in your day.

he is the source of all that we are.

i know that he lives, and that he would do anything to make sure my life is all that i want it to be. 

my love for my god is as unstoppable as his love for me.

today is a great day to live. 

live yours the best you can.

but make someone else's just a little better today.

live today, as if christ was walking right next to you......

because, in reality, he's there.

 even if you cant see him.

faith is believing something not with your eyes, 

but with your heart.

he lives. <3

story of my life.....at the moment.

this can be either way:you have lost connection to someone..or the other way around.

its super awkward. 

what are you supposed to do in that situation? 

i prefer to laugh it off...but uh..the world is not as insanely odd as i am.

but come on world, when the tough gets going,

life's too short to NOT just burst out in laughter.

enjoy the difficult times when you can.

turn a negative situation into a positive situation. :) <3

leaving the past

"LEAVING THE PAST, TO THE PAST, AND MOVE ON

I THOUGHT I COULD NEVER DO IT

I THOUGHT MY WORLD WILL STOP TURNING

I THOUGHT MY WORLD WILL COME TO AN END

I WAS LOCKED IN MY MISERY GAZING AT MY DOOM

THINKING AND FEELING ONLY OF MY PAIN

I WAS IN UTTER DISTRACTION COVERING MY PAIN

I WAS KILLING TIME AND SPENDING MONEY

GOING TO DIFFERENT PLACES AND BE WITH ANYONE

I WAS LAUGHING AND DANCING MY LIFE AWAY

EVERYTHING WAS TEARING ME UP INSIDE

NO ONE SEES AND TAKES NOTICE OF ME

I WAS COMPLETELY LOST IN MY MISERY

ONLY I CAN CHANGE, ONLY I CAN STOP MYSELF

I CAN STAY OR I CAN TAKE A STEP AND MOVE ON"

-Reel Wander <3

eminem speaks wisdom

i am currently addicted to this song,

listen to what he says.

he's right. 

sometimes we lie to protect ourselves from what we know will cause pain to us or others,

sometimes we keep it bottled inside so long that it becomes atomic.

sometimes we tell people things that they do not understand completely.

sometimes we gash ourselves open with the truth and the atomic bomb goes off.

sometimes we say all the right things, but they are heard in all the wrong ways.

sometimes you love so much that it suffocates you and you are trapped.

but there is always hope. 

you are never alone. 

no matter how much wrong you have been through,

there is always a light.

there is no end to goodness. 

<3

its times like this, a girl could use......her best friend.

its very hot,

very short,

and sometimes..it can be a very big reality check.

i feel kinda jipped because my friends haven't been calling me-its mostly just been me to them.


but hey. at least someones doing it...right?


lately ive been missing my best friend on his mission very much.
he is an amazing kid and we have gone through a TON together, despite the fact that he has always lived in utah...and i have always lived in arizona...thank goodness efy! he was the best thing that ever came to me through ALL the Especially For Youth camps..


in his last letter to me he asked me to read a talk by president monson and i found possibly the GREATEST quote..

" True love can alter human lives and change human nature."

how true this statement is. 
and how selfish i have felt for getting upset with people over the simplest things. 
never forget to make sure that those you love, KNOW that you love them.


you never know how much a simple
"i love you"
can change 1 person.
...or quite possibly just human nature as well.
<3

the true thread.

Sometimes when I am thinking about my simple life I feel as If a great force is taking over me. sometimes I feel torn or even tortured within myself and I can feel that my body and soul are constantly fighting for something. I believe that something to be my sanity.

Life is never easy. Sometimes we are faced with death of the closest love to our heart, or perhaps we are cursed with love towards another who does not seem to share the intimate power of the pull.

All I know, is that love exists and is all that matters. Without it, nothing matters. Love is the very thread that keeps us bound together. Anatomy can teach what it likes but the true molecules that keep our very skin and organs intact, is love.

Everyone is born with it. You cannot stop it. Some may hide it, others may abuse it. But love is unstoppable gift.

The only problem, is sometimes, when you love too much, it gets the best of you. And it tortures you. Tortures you to the very pulp. But what better thing to be tortured by than by love itself?

I wish that people would not forget the gift they had.

But what is love?

It is one of the most difficult traits to describe. Simple LOVE is caring, empathizing, forgiving, respecting, giving, charity, understanding, guarding, guiding, striving, dedicating, sacrificing, appriciating and so many more things. But of all, love is real. It is no santa clause or tooth fairy. It is no myth or fantasy. But it is a gift and a tool.

It is for you. To give and to receive. If you are never shown any in your lifetime, it is up to you to make sure that no one is left with the same misfortune as you. Although, I know for a fact, that if you never stop giving love and sharing it with others, you will never stop receiving it. Yes. There may be times when it is not given to you,

 but

 you will still never stop being given it back.  <3